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Kehisha and I were married on Feb 8, 1986 in Brownsville, OR, at the old Babtist Church, in the presence of God and 400 witnesses.

Kenisha left me with our four children on Nov 8th, 2005, due to my failure as the spiritual leader of our home, in that I did not pray for her and the children , and I did not read the Bible to her and my children as much as I should have. I take full responsibility for the current condition of my marriage and my family, in that my lack of Godly leadership and spiritual protection allowed the enemy (the devil and his cohorts) to ransack our marriage and our family.

The first thing that God convicted me of after Kenisha left is that I had put her before God and had loved her more than I loved God. This is a terrible sin which I have repented of and praise God, He has healed me of.

Kenisha is the most wonderful woman on earth and I love her with all my heart, but now my God is first in my life, as he should be and Kenisha is second and my children are third.

My dear sweet Kenisha,

If you find this page, please forgive me for my failure to be a the kind of leader in our marriage and our home that God has called me to be.

When ever you decide to come home, I'll be here waiting for you. If I'm 100 years old, and on my death bet, and you haven't come back yet, I'll still be waiting for you!!! I love you with all my heart!!!

I made a covenant with you, before God and and 400 witnesses and now I publish this covenant for the world to see. You are my one and only true love on this earth!!! I will wait for you as long as it takes.

Your Loving Husband,

Tim Hassen Corban


These are my beloved children. Left to right, Malena, Najiya, Devin & Rochelle. I love them and miss them more than any words could ever discribe!
I have spent countless days and nights with my heart broken, and longing to see them, play with them and spend time talking with them, and often weeping uncontrolably for hours at a time. Ok, it's not been quite countless...actually it's been exactly 1015 days! Yet, it has been suggested that since this web site contains little content regarding my children, that maybe I don't care about them much or that maybe I just want our marriage restored for selfish reasons. So, I'll address that rediculous notion here and now.

There are several reasons that this web site focuses on my marriage more than my children. For starters, I am standing for the restoration of my entire family, not just my marriage and not just my children. However, since my children are not with me right now, due to the fact that they were taken from me by my sweet wife, when God restores our marriage, our entire family will be restored! PTL!!! Focusing on getting my children back would be focusing on the symptom instead of the root problem. If I were to get my children back but still end up with a broken home, they will ultimately be damaged more than either Kenisha or myself. The breakup of our marriage will do more damage to our children than any other single thing that could happen to them in this life. So, standing for our marriage, IS actually standing for my children just as much as I am for our marriage. So it is just as much or more for their protection and well being that I am focusing on the restoration of our marriage as it is for Kenisha and myself. Also, as a father, it is part of my resposibility to set an example for my children as to what Biblical covenant, love and loyalty are all about.

Do I care about my children? Absolutely! More than words could ever tell! Let me tell you a little story about myself that I have only told to about 4 people before now.
When Kenisha and I talked about kids before we were married, be both wanted 3 or 4 children. However, when my oldest daugher Malena was born, her and Kenisha both almost died in childbirth. Almost loosing my wife and daughter really shook me up enough that I couldn't trust God with having more children as we had planned. So, I got a vasectomy. The doctor that did the procedure did not question either Kenisha or myself very well on how sure we were that we wanted this. Shortly after it was done, I started regretting it, but thought that it was to late, so I tried to make myself and Kenisha get used to the idea that we were only going to have two children. But it didn't work, for me or for her...and then for Devin and Malena either.

Then we heard about a doctor in Texas (Dr. Leverett), that had a very high succsess rate at reversing vasectomys! He was expensive, but we were told by many that he was the best on in the USA for this type of surgery. So, we got our money together and flew to Texas. We were both very disappointed to find out that the first surgery was unsuccessful! So, 2 years later, we got more money together and I went back for a second reversal surgery. Praise God, this one worked! Shortly after that, we were pregnant with Rochelle!

Now, for those of you guys that have never had a vasectomy reversal, let me tell you...it's much worse than the vasectomy it's self! Many times over! I am not a woman, and have never given birth, but I would venture to say that a reversal is probably on the same level as giving birth, as far as the pain goes. My point here is simply that I love my first 2 children enough to WILLINGLY go through 2 reversals in order to have 2 more children! I would give anything, including laying down my own life for their protection and well being.

The bottom line here, is that like most guys, I hate pain. And particularly the pain you experience when you get a vasectomy and worse yet...reversals. So, if I didn't love or care about my children, I certainly would never have gotten reversal number one, and no way no how would I have ever gone back for a second one!

My new tattoo...Installed on my left arm on June 4th...just another expression of my love and care for my childrren. Right now I don't have the option of seeing them or expressing my love to them, but I can certainly tell others by displaying my tattoo! :)

Q. How committed am I to standing for my children? How long will I wait for them to come home?
A. How perminant is a tattoo? A lifetime! I just got this tattoo on June 2nd, 2006, after not seeing or hearing from my children for almost 7 months.

The significance of the tattoo is this:

Devin and I studied a book called "Rasing A Modern Day Knight", with 3 other fathers and sons. The sword is symbolic of Devin being my modern day knight.
Again, three roses, one for each of my three daughters and also symbolic of the ultimate "I Love You" to all 4 of my children.
The heart dosen't need any explaination. Right?
The key in the heart is symbolic of my children having the key to my heart.
Ps 127:3-5 says, "Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of one’s youth. Happy is the man who has his quiver full of them; they shall not be ashamed, but shall speak with their enemies in the gate.
Eph. 6:4 says, "And you, fathers, do not provoke your children to wrath, but bring them up in the training and admonition of the Lord."

These two verses describe my heart toward my children

In conclusion, do I love my children? Are they important to me? Do I care about them? Absolutely, without a doubt!!! Just ask anyone who knows me! But if I am going to make a good, healthy and Godly life for them, I have no option but to focus on the restoration of their mom and dad's marriage. And doing so in NO WAY indicates a lack of care, concern or love for them on my part. In fact it indicates exactly the opposite...a DEEP, DEEP care, love and concern for them and their well being!!!

Devin, Malena, Rochelle and Najiya, I Love you with all my heart and I always will!!!